Fear Is Excitement Without The Breath (h/t Gay Hendrix)

This post is showing up in your inbox right before I look into my inboxes to find out what I’ve missed in the past 6 days since I’ve been on a little trip.

I’m scared to look.

Like, I don’t really want to find out what I missed, what I messed up, what I forgot to do before I left and - there’s some anxiety.

I had a lot of fun though.

I’m ready to be back, but I had a lot of fun not being in the thick of the work things, and I don’t regret it. At all. Not even a little.

But I still don’t want to look.

I was looking through my phone for a specific book note a week ago, talking to a friend about an idea he was working on, and I found this Gay Hendrix quote:

“Fear is excitement without the breath.”

I’m thinking of it again, now.

I don’t think I’m actually that scared to look - I like the people I work with and the work I do.

I have at least 17 exciting projects I pressed pause on to take some time off.

Granted, of the 17 exciting projects, there’s 36 other less exciting projects that - what if I dropped a ball and a client or a colleague is peeved? I don’t like that. But, that’s just part of it, right?

I want to dive back in.

I just forgot to breathe.

Hendrix is right. Fear is the same as excitement. We’re just stuck, all bottled up, sometimes.

I’m going to take a deep breath and look now.

Wish me luck.

(and, if you’re feeling some fear too, this is worth remembering. It’s just excitement. Breathe out.)